I’m a recovering alcoholic and have not touched alcohol for over 3 years now. The longest time I’ve had without alcohol in my life, since I was 15 years old. Hard to write this and realize I’m 57 years old and 43 of it I was stuck on “stupid”. A very humbling experience, I might add. What memories I have of the past are sporadic, and incomplete. I’m here in
Rescue Mission! I hope there's one in every major city. These establishments are literally life savers. I became aware when I was bloody, beat up, drunk, and filthy dirty and happened to fall through the door of DRML. They afforded me lodging, food, and medical assistance. I recuperated for the next 8 days becoming acutely aware of DRML's workings and ended up joining their "New Life Program". I ended up relapsing after about 4 months. You're expected to leave the establishment for at least 30 days at which time, if you choose, to try it again. No 3rd chances. I relapsed again after about 5 months. Two things were for sure though. I was definitely a "hard core" alcoholic, AND I had no clue, up to this point, HOW to read the Bible. How you read the Good Book (grammatically correct), is directly propotionate to how you understand it! What an awakening. I believe that good sound doctrine at an early age would diminish the ranks of alcoholics. Hence, the "Desiderata" Good, sound doctrine if I ever read it.
Different items, to help in change, differ from one person to the next. I use a coin(1923 "Peace Dollar") which helps me control anger when normally I'd be reaching for my wallet to get another bottle. I use the "Desiderata" to begin the day with the right mindset. If you're an AA member carry your most recent "Time" medallion. Whatever you choose to use as markers of progress go ahead and use it. All's fair in your private war against alcohol. It's a war that only YOU can judge if your making progress in your recovery or not.Check our Links page to hook up with some ideas that might help.
Fear is a very REAL threat to a lot of recovering alcoholics. Why? The constant worry of inadequacy will always enter the mind, and I used to quell those fears with alcohol. Smart? Not hardly. It almost seems redundant to me now, but people who are struggling with newfound sobriety are in danger of being overwhelmed with the new surroundings, speed of life, and where they are in comparison to everyone around them. I can't urge them enough about including SUPPORT, (from anywhere), in their quest to be alcohol free. The stubborness of trying to find answers on my own was both futile and costly. All, I can say is there is absolutely no way I would have progressed this far, this quickly, without support. Not everyone is as fortunate. If you, or someone you know, is struggling with fear, assure them that they're not alone, ever. Reaffirm your own assurance by glancing at Joshua 1:9 or Heb.13:5. Fear is a very real emotion that can destroy ones will to stay off the booze, if you let it. Anymore, I just understand, if God is with me, who can be against me. I read that somewhere. Oh yeah. Rom. 8:31. The Bible is a never ending source of answers to the questions a recovering alcoholic has in sobriety. The family tree DOES become involved in most cases. Repairing past deeds, and dealing with whatever is in front of you will be made somewhat easier if you haven't burnt ALL your bridges while drinking. Try to track your family using the Archives link in the sidebar.